I know it’s been a few years since we last spoke. I’m wondering if you’ve became the person you were always meant to be. I wonder how much you fought to become that person, how many scars do you carry? how many times did you start over? how did you find the courage to do so anyways?
I know that you’re not the person I once knew how to love but maybe you’re easier to love now. I hope that only means that you’ve learned that you’re deserving of it. Because the truth is, you always have been.
Five years ago, you didn’t think you were. Do you remember that? I know I do. You asked me to stay knowing that I couldn’t. You asked me to stay knowing that whatever I had to give wasn’t the kind of love you needed. I left anyways and I know, I know you thought that you weren’t deserving of love to cross oceans for but you were, I promise you were. I just hadn’t learned how to stay yet. I hadn’t learned yet how to keep the promises I made.
I know much better now. I’m better now. I’m better for you now but I’m afraid that I’m late. I heard that you’re in love again and I want you to know that you are the most courageous person I have ever met, I left you, I was almost the end of you, I almost killed you but you didn’t die. You fought everyday, you fought to become a better person, you fought to find love and you were brave enough to seize it and I love you so much for that.