I wish you’d just love me. It’s cold outside and the wind against my skin doesn’t make me feel the way you do. It never does. You hold my shaking hands between yours every winter and you promise to be here when the flowers start growing between the cracks in the pavement but we never make it past January. You leave in December and you always apologize for it, I can’t remember a time when you didn’t. I tell you that it’s okay because it will be, next winter I will be holding my door open for you again, and I will wish once more that you knew how to love me.
thewordsyouneverunderstood

I know it’s been a few years since we last spoke. I’m wondering if you’ve became the person you were always meant to be. I wonder how much you fought to become that person, how many scars do you carry? how many times did you start over? how did you find the courage to do so anyways?

I know that you’re not the person I once knew how to love but maybe you’re easier to love now. I hope that only means that you’ve learned that you’re deserving of it. Because the truth is, you always have been.

Five years ago, you didn’t think you were. Do you remember that? I know I do. You asked me to stay knowing that I couldn’t. You asked me to stay knowing that whatever I had to give wasn’t the kind of love you needed. I left anyways and I know, I know you thought that you weren’t deserve of love to cross oceans for but you were, I promise you were. I just hadn’t learned how to stay yet. I hadn’t learned yet how to keep the promises I made.

I know much better now. I’m better now. I’m better for you now but I’m afraid that I’m late. I heard that you’re in love again and I want you to know that you are the most courageous person I have ever met, I left you, I was almost the end of you, I almost killed you but you didn’t die. You fought everyday, you fought to become a better person, you fought to find love and you were brave enough to seize it and I love you so much for that.

Farewell, Until We Meet Again // thewordsyouneverunderstood (via thewordsyouneverunderstood)
thosedeeppoems

He loves you. I know I’m the last person you want to hear this from but it’s true.

He doesn’t pick up my phone calls anymore and he’s stopped thinking about me. I know this because the last time we spoke he compared your eyes to the fucking galaxy. I know that sometimes he forgets to tell you he loves you. He’s always been that bad at telling people what they mean to him. That’s the one thing besides his eyes that hasn’t changed about him but everything else has.

I know that he doesn’t say much sometimes but know that there is a lot in his head. He will try to put it into words for you but sometimes he will fail. Don’t be upset with him, he’s learning and so are you.

Be patient with him. His father left when he was younger and his mother is there but not at all. He is terrified of letting you become everything because he has only know what being left feels like. So hold his hands when he’s shaking with everything ruinous. Don’t force words out of him, just be silent with him until his heartbeat isn’t so fast anymore. He’s a little messy and if that scares you then you don’t love him as much as you think you do.

I know it’s been a few years since we last spoke. I’m wondering if you’ve became the person you were always meant to be. I wonder how much you fought to become that person, how many scars do you carry? how many times did you start over? how did you find the courage to do so anyways?

I know that you’re not the person I once knew how to love but maybe you’re easier to love now. I hope that only means that you’ve learned that you’re deserving of it. Because the truth is, you always have been.

Five years ago, you didn’t think you were. Do you remember that? I know I do. You asked me to stay knowing that I couldn’t. You asked me to stay knowing that whatever I had to give wasn’t the kind of love you needed. I left anyways and I know, I know you thought that you weren’t deserving of love to cross oceans for but you were, I promise you were. I just hadn’t learned how to stay yet. I hadn’t learned yet how to keep the promises I made.

I know much better now. I’m better now. I’m better for you now but I’m afraid that I’m late. I heard that you’re in love again and I want you to know that you are the most courageous person I have ever met, I left you, I was almost the end of you, I almost killed you but you didn’t die. You fought everyday, you fought to become a better person, you fought to find love and you were brave enough to seize it and I love you so much for that.

Farewell, Until We Meet Again // thewordsyouneverunderstood